Fallen Sparrow

I cried unto God. . .

A  sparrow fell, and no one heard.
Nobody cared. It was just a bird.
From all the numberless, flitting throng
of sparrows, who would miss one song?
But God leaned down and whispered, "I care,
That was one of My sparrows, and I was there."

Were you, God? You could not have been there!
If you're God at all....then You could have prevented
This nightmare of pain! So, you must have consented.
I've always believed You were loving and good
I'd like to believe still, if only I could.
But God, if You love me, how can You allow
such unbearable pain as I'm feeling right now?
Such helplessness...hopelessness...bitter regret...
So many tears that have fallen and yet 
So many more that are still locked inside.
Oh God...out there somewhere...have You ever cried?
I'm not even sure anymore that You're real,
But if You are God...do you care how I feel?

Then, in a still, small voice He replied. . .

Beloved I care in the midst of your grief,
In the midst of your stricken and crumbling belief,
In the midst of the blackness of total despair.
In the midst of your questioning, child... I am there.
"In the midst!" Not far off in some vague fifth dimension. 
But there, where you are, giving you My attention.
My constant attention....and not just today, 
Since before you were born, I have loved you this way.
You're important to Me, every hair on your head
I have numbered Myself.  Can these tears that you shed
Go uncounted.......unnoticed? Nay, child, here I stand
Close enough that each teardrop falls into My Hand.
I know what you suffer, I know what you'll gain,
If you'll let Me walk with you into your pain. 
I'll carry your grief, and your sorrow I'll bear. 
You've only to reach out your hand....I am there.
Let Me walk with you now, through the long heavy days. 
Let Me slowly begin changing heartache to praise. 
Take hold of My Hand child, take hold of My Love.
I will lead you to joys that you yet know not of.
Your faith may be weak, and your trust incomplete,
But I'll walk not too fast for your stumbling feet.